Well, I joined the site back in October and I just had a look to see that not one has seen my page. Feels like goshtown, and I love it!

I guess I have to share my page and so on. But my posts is not really that interesting. Is made for me to let it all out on the net rather than on paper, with new technology, it feels easier to type rather than write, like I used to do.
My boyfriend gave me an iPad for my birthday. Yes, three days ago. I turned 28…

Where did all the time go? I don’t think it has sink in yet. I feel like I am floating in mid air with numbers all around me.
Good thing is, that now I can just type away my thoughts anytime I want with this expensive present.

I realised I don’t read anymore. I have some many books to catch up with, and still nothing.
Maybe that should be my new year resolution, read more and be more calm.
I don’t want to think about what will happen this year. With the world. I really don’t want to know. I guess I will go day by day.
So many people out there have been unfortunate to have their lives taken away from them, their homes, countries.
Hmm, better not open the box, the box I managed to close 2 days ago with the power of my mind.

Until next time

Tania Beltran


I failed

Looking back at my last post. I can’t believe is been over two years!

I haven’t achieved what I was determined to do. Instead I been living my life just like any other regular person.( trying to earn money to survive).

I had ambition when I was at university, and now that flare has wasted away with the whiff of reality and corruption everywhere I set my eyes on.

I now understand, how people keep quiet and continue with their lives on their own way.

I think, I have become that person. The person I never wanted to be. The person, who is not out there helping ladies who doesn’t have a voice of their own.

Why? because, I feel I don’t have that voice for them, I don’t even have the voice for me!

The times, I let people talk to me like I am worthless. Only, because I am too scared to stand up to myself.

Is scary how many people out there live their life’s with NO CARE for other human beings or welfare of animals, I watch from afar, people wearing leather/ fur like is the best thing they have achieved within their small narrow minded life.

Yes, I have been beaten, to the cruel reality of life and today’s selfish and greedy world.

I been focusing on helping people near me, and also trying to help myself, not to succumb to this horrid era that I am unfortunate to live in.

I stopped myself, from becoming a journalist, because I was scared of my small 10% dyslexia.

Is hard to admit my failures, but here it is.

World 1. Tania 0, World you won.

Back to face reality my first Blog from 20th July 2012

Today after many years I decided to go back to reality.

After my graduation at university I stopped caring about news and what was happening in South America.

I felt that when I was at university it was my duty to give my all and have the knowledge for everyone around me. I notice it is a full time job and mentally exhausting.

For one I can’t do anything  about the situation around me, it is bigger than me, and secondly my mind will worry nonstop.

But then I have nothing else going in my life.

I am trying to dedicate my life into Human Rights, my real life dream.

Be able to help others, that don’t have the voice to stand up for themselves or the force to run away.

I know every country has its problems and violations.

My roots are from Colombia and I feel is my duty to help Colombia and give awareness to others, people who doesn’t really know what is happening.

Today was just my first day to awaking my real self.

I can’t rely myself on the news so I’ll have to talk to people in Colombia to know what is happening.

I am grateful to have several human rights lawyers in Colombia that can tell me what the new president and I say ‘new’ because I really haven’t tried to know what he has done for the country, for the past soon to be two years…

That way I can get myself aware of the situation with my own judgment.

I know no one will actually read this.

This blog is for me mostly because I want reach a state of fulfillment with myself.


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