Paranormal manifestation

This is a random post.

People that know me, know that I believe in paranormal, I wouldn’t say I am fascinated by all categories, but I always known and said, that there is energies out there. Probably when we die we turn into this energy. Yes, I have had experiences which I am not going to write about. But I just want to write about the fact of little things I picked up throughout my years.

I always believed that if you don’t want that presence around you, you need to stop it from happening. Ignore it, don’t give it attention. And that energy will leave you alone. Which is what has happened to me several times. I think this is why I try no to open up myself again, because I don’t want the same experiences to happen for the 7th time. And yes every time it was a different energy. I have to admit that not all of them have been unpleasant. I have tried to close away bad energy and I try my best to open myself to positive energy.

I also have said that when people give attention to a place where people have died. The more likely they will feel a presence, or witnesses will talk about paranormal activity they have felt and seen manifest itself.

Now why will someone feel a presence in an unknown place? Because that person has opened the perception to feel something, and that energy will appear like wildfire.

Funny enough I was listening to Tim Swartz in an podcast interview, have to admit the podcast itself was the worse…. with prolonged music and unnecessary intro, but Mr Swartz said out loud what I knew all along! He confirmed my theory!

Yes, I haven’t talked to ”professionals” per say about paranormal. I am sceptical about people who want to gain money from people who are desperately in need. Now I don’t know anything about Mr Swartz, but I do know he said what I always knew. And it feels great! That is not just me that believes it!


From 23andMe to Nutrigenomix

Couple of months ago, I decided to buy 23andme Test. I was excited and couldn’t wait to receive my results.

I made a video of different stages and so far until now, I haven’t made the effort to make an update video.

Check my video below:


Now, I took into consideration several people suggestions and yes, I did download my raw data to two different databases.
GED Match was tricky to understand and jus left it be, and the DNA Land was nice and user friendly.

Now, I will make a video eventually.
The other day I read about food and genetics. How our genes determines what we should consume to help us maintain a perfect weight.
As soon as I read it, I had a look through the Company that is advertising the service around the world (Nutrigenomix). For some reason the ”nutrition” places around me didn’t offer the service, so I decided to email them to ask if my raw data from 23andme would still work.
Unfortunately for the moment it doesn’t… but they are looking to develop a tool. However for my case, I will need to do a new sample as the representative quoted;

 They do not have data on 6-8 of the 45 genetics markers that we examine (the number of missing markers depends on when you ordered your 23andMe test and which panel they used at the time) 

So that is all for now. I think I will have a think if I should go further with the test. As it hasn’t sold me completely.

If you have done it, has it worked for you? would you recommend it?


Tania Beltran

The World’s 20 Worst Crimes Part 2

Going through the book, midway I notice that every story had me thinking of different ways to make it better.

I thought I better stop and start accumulating my questions and thoughts of each story. As you know, is easy to read a book in just couple of hours and then realise that there were many unexplained answers.

The Hillside Stranglers

IMG_6717.JPGNow the first story, I estimated that it really didn’t have to be there. The only thing I found interesting is how the murder reacted at the time of the arrest. Bianchi was nonchalant and cooperative, like he didn’t know what was happening. In the other hand Buono was opposite of Bianchi. He came across arrogant and rude to officers. Bianchi showed multiple disorders and he cooperated to take hypnosis sessions. Throughout the sessions and therefore afterwards Bianchi came clean and told the whole truth, which implicated his cousin Buono.

They both killed 12 people in L.A, 10 of those in a 6 week period.

Apart from that, the story wasn’t interesting. It didn’t have enough cause to captivate me. A story of two cousins killing without any worries that just got away with for way too long.

I give the story a 0 out of 5.

The Freeway Killer 


While reading Mr Bonin story. Three things stroke me as odd, probably four. This story was the main reason I thought I should make a review of the whole book.

Q1. The book mentions that Bonin had two accomplices. [How were they convinced to assist Bonin in his killing spree?].

Q2. The analogue of specific murders reads as if the writer was a witness or took part of the murder, the fact that the writer doesn’t specify where they received the information just makes the whole analogue painful to read.

Q3. A neighbour heard screams coming from Bonin’s house ”like a horror movie” for hours. [When did they neighbour heard? Did the neighbour informed officials there and then or after Bonin’s arrest? And how did the writer acquired the information?]

Q4. Bonin was only caught because an 18yr old informed the police… again the writer doesn’t explain if the 18yr old was arrested and then decided to come clean or the person just decided to walk in to the station. Was the 18yr old involved too?

A1. Even though the book mentions just two accomplices. I was in utter shock, I wonder how on earth did he managed to persuade two different individuals. I had a look at Murderpedia to find out that in fact Bonin had four accomplices! It felt like I was blind for so long throughout my whole crime career. I know it reads odd, but it never occurred to me that several people had become criminals because they were lured to assist the actual serial killer, and then I thought to myself,  what if other serial killers had co-defendants too and we know nothing about it?! ”Boom” my mind exploded. I think is because is not a subject that has been discussed in depth.

A2. There is no evidence the writer received that much information, the writer should have specified, it makes me think they writer just made it up for the sake making words on paper.

A3. Again no evidence from the neighbour, the story would be worse if the neighbour came clean after Bonin’s arrest, because that individual could have prevented years of murders.

A4. Murderpedia doesn’t inform either about the 18yr old. Bonin could have become one of the minority that got away with murder.

It is quite clear that Bonin’s serial killing spree started right after the war, the story started with the step by step of his legal injection. To the very end Bonin never broke, he didn’t show any remorse and it could be said that the reason was because the war shaped him that way. There is no question that the story could have been better executed. I don’t like fiction and it felt like that kind of book. I’m not going to lie it really sucked. To top it all off, the story is confusing and pure speculation without any backed up evidence.

For that reason I give this story a 2 out of 5.

The Lady Killer


Mr Bundy story wasn’t hard to swallow, in fact it was a story well executed with all 5 W’S. Mr Bundy was categorised as the kind of psychopath all psychologist examine for in their own patients. Bundy was smart and successful. He graduated in psychology and was studying a law degree. He was a volunteer to a variety of charities and campaigned for the Republican Party. ”I know, who has that much time?!”

He was as we all know, the hidden ”Perfect” individual. The one, that no one suspected.Adrian

I read about Bundy’s character in ”The Anatomy of Violence” by Adrian Raine.
Now Mr Raine book is mind blowing, I totally recommend it if you are interested in crime, psychopathy and the root of violence. I was tempted to write a review about Raine’s book, but I don’t have any negative feedback. All I have to say is a MUST read book for crime. It gives you an understanding of different individuals and what may trigger someone to kill.
Raine proves with diverse of different research; if is it in their genes, circumstances while growing up or even brain function, with proven cases of different serial killers and murderers.

Going back to Bundy, all through his killing spree, he kept calm. Bundy was interrogated couple of times and he always kept his composure. He only got caught because he let his guard down. Once convicted, he decided to represent himself. He tried to escape several times and finally succeeded. Now you would think that any individual, would have tried to stay away from crime, but he didn’t. He killed again, but this time it was sloppy and desperate. He left two victims alive, and left his biting denture on one of his kills, it was for that reason he finally got convicted to the electric chair.

Bundy once sentenced kept his ”innocence” statement and blamed the media for his malpractice verdict.

Bundy did tried to contact the families of the people he killed, to give them some type of closure, in fact he only did so just to prolong his sentence, but he didn’t succeed. At the very end he never showed any remorse, in fact he kept his mouth sealed.

I give this story a 4 out of 5.

The Rostov Ripper

Andrei Romanovich Chikatilo most known as the Rostov Ripper, was one of many serial killers that could have been prevented. At this stage and date, no one should undergo the same treatment he received throughout his childhood.

The story from the book again is very specific in certain killings, and as I mentioned before, I don’t know how the writer composed most of it.
Chikatilo once captured talked in detail about each murder- But not in the same way the writer explained as seen below;

”Andrei wiped the saliva from the corner of his mouth barely to contain his excitement ”

As the quotation above, we know that Chikatilo couldn’t have gone into so much detail.
During confession, he admitted to 36 murders and then after his confession, the murders went up to 53 that could be proven. The story portrayed Chikatilo as a cannibal & sexual predator.

He was an individual who changed due to his life experiences. From the book, we learn;

1. throughout his childhood he is told about his deceased brother that was killed due to the famine for the family to survive. Enable him to accept that in certain circumstances cannibalism is acceptable.

2. During the war, he witnessed his mother be raped by several soldiers, scaring him for life.

3. While in the army, Chikatilo himself was bullied and sexually raped by several soldiers.

4. After the war, he couldn’t perform and therefore it took him longer to conceived a child with his new wife.

Yes, Chikatilo after a horrid life experience, finished a university degree, found a wife, had kids and somehow he still ended up killing, bitting, eating and ejaculating on several cadavers.

By the book description, it was his only way to accomplish any sexual erection.

Chikatilo didn’t get caught earlier because his semen (AB) was a different type than his actually blood type (A). So even though he was questioned by police, they had to let him go, sadly he continued with his uncontrollable appetite. He finally got caught by acting. shifty with a strange woman.

The story was again so-so. I really wanted to know more about his family. The story demonstrated that Chikatilo was the kind of individual that should have had help from the very beginning.

Due to unfinished topics, I give this story a 2 out of 5.

The Candy Man

Unfortunately the story of Dean Corll was mostly about the day a kid called the police and found Corll dead naked at his own house.

The whole story was about the two young boy’s confession, How they assisted Corll with his mass killings. Because of the confession police was able to find around 23 bodies under the floor of a boat shed and another 4 bodies buried in other locations. Unfortunately, we don’t obtain nothing else other than the aftermath. The book doesn’t disclose Corll background. All we know is that he had two accomplices that were underage when Corll found them. Both accomplices helped in capturing other kids for his torture and kills.

For that reason I give this story a 0 out of 5.

Now most of these stories is delivered as fiction, because of the way the writer elaborates in most of the killings with specifics that a killer wouldn’t have remembered such as;

”Yelena pulled her collar up, put her head down against the chill wind” ” Andrei wiped the saliva from the corner of his mouth barely to contain his excitement” Pg42

This is a tiny example of what I have to deal with. Another subject that came to my mind was the ”accomplices”.
This is a new one for me after being such a fan of true crime. It made me think of the accomplices we are not been made aware of.

The notion that few serial killers were capable to persuade people to assist them with their killing spree.  I wonder HOW they were convinced. What power the killer must have had on the individuals. I know a few individuals might have had a susceptible intellect, or frail nature, but even so I wonder how they were persuaded to join in.

What if there is more out there than haven’t come out to the light?. What if they got caught up under the moment? I do wonder quite a bit but, I haven’t expanded further than now.

On my next story I will write about:

The Milwaukee Monster
The Stockwell Strangler
The Brooklyn Vampire
Pogo The Clown
The Planfield Butcher

The Worlds 20 Worst Crimes (Book Review part 1)

I bought the book  ”The worlds 20 worst crimes”  because it caught my eye, the fact that it was made as a must read  for a devotee of True Crime, THE Serial Killer book. It grasped my attention, reading the list of serial killers and the synopsis, I just had to buy the book.

I must say before I continue, that I am the person who loves stories, I was that kind of child that begged family members to tell me stories, no matter what it was. Now as an adult, I read books like mythology which reveals stories from different gods, such as Greek gods to Egyptian etc, and therefore I have ended up reading books with mini horror stories.

I love a story with an End. Who the killer was, their life, their killing spree, the process of capture & then the law outcome.

The author Kate Kray is a lady who was married to a famous gangster. I really don’t care about her background. What made me buy the books was the content.


The only thing that made me cringe was the writers personal opinion on her last paragraph:

”They are the chief spirits of pure evil and the enemy of God”

” Knowing the details of the brutal murders that these serial killers committed again and again, I can see no option other than to excuse these monsters. They are pure evil through and trough and I strongly believe they will burn in the pit of hell”.

Now I know what these serial killers have done, I have ready psychopathy books to figure out their actions and I don’t hold such a strong opinion where these killers are from or where they deserve to be. I could say the same thing for people who kill animals or consume animals products. Lets not even start with people who parade themselves in animal fur. that is another chapter all together.

I thought the best approach to review the book, is by making different chapters.because every time I read about one of the killers, I have questions and thoughts.

In my next post, I will write about the first five killers from the ”Top 20 worst crimes” of the book. trust me, it will be interesting.

The London underground Serial Killer

As you can see, I am posing away with a book which at the time was an OK book, The writer Geoff Platt explained he was a detective for the London Police. Yes, the book caught my eye from the very beginning, I mean look at that cover! (I know, you shouldn’t judge a book by it’s cover), but when I read the synopsis, I though this was THE book and I was sold.

The first chapter and maybe the second chapter was interesting, then that was it. For some reason the writer thought, that the readers might want to know about the underground history for each Northern line station, and I mean EACH ONE. Then at the very end, it became interesting again because he decided to write about the killer again. However there were paragraphs in which he just explains how a witness had to get ready for court or the whole court proceedings with insignificant details for seven pages.

The book itself only contained information about the killer for maybe 20 pages out of 370 pages. Unfortunately I was lied and deceived when I bought the book. It took me over six months to finish the book, because in reality every time I tried, I just kept falling asleep.

I didn’t buy the book to know about how the underground became to be or how each station was made.

What a complete waste of time, paper and money.


For that reason, I give this book a 0 out of 10.


Tania Beltran


There has been tons of different crazy news all over the world, day after day.

Just reminding me how Fucked up we really are. I do wonder if we are in fact in hell. I guess it could be worse? I can see how bad it can get, but we are screwed either way.

I watched 13th documentary last night, and even though I knew the topic… having a 100 minute documentary reminding you and showing you graphic images. Just made you wake up in another level. I then think about Europe… Well that is another story.

I also watched the new TV show OA, and it was emotional! Again a different perspective to our world. It will be nice, to know, there is an after life. That people will be punished for their behaviour to others and unfair treatment to animals.

I guess, I can just hope.

The only reason, I decided to write today, was because of the news of a hacker on WordPress? so I thought I check my little blog.


Until next time

Tania Beltran


Well, I joined the site back in October and I just had a look to see that not one has seen my page. Feels like goshtown, and I love it!

I guess I have to share my page and so on. But my posts is not really that interesting. Is made for me to let it all out on the net rather than on paper, with new technology, it feels easier to type rather than write, like I used to do.
My boyfriend gave me an iPad for my birthday. Yes, three days ago. I turned 28…

Where did all the time go? I don’t think it has sink in yet. I feel like I am floating in mid air with numbers all around me.
Good thing is, that now I can just type away my thoughts anytime I want with this expensive present.

I realised I don’t read anymore. I have some many books to catch up with, and still nothing.
Maybe that should be my new year resolution, read more and be more calm.
I don’t want to think about what will happen this year. With the world. I really don’t want to know. I guess I will go day by day.
So many people out there have been unfortunate to have their lives taken away from them, their homes, countries.
Hmm, better not open the box, the box I managed to close 2 days ago with the power of my mind.

Until next time

Tania Beltran

I failed

Looking back at my last post. I can’t believe is been over two years!

I haven’t achieved what I was determined to do. Instead I been living my life just like any other regular person.( trying to earn money to survive).

I had ambition when I was at university, and now that flare has wasted away with the whiff of reality and corruption everywhere I set my eyes on.

I now understand, how people keep quiet and continue with their lives on their own way.

I think, I have become that person. The person I never wanted to be. The person, who is not out there helping ladies who doesn’t have a voice of their own.

Why? because, I feel I don’t have that voice for them, I don’t even have the voice for me!

The times, I let people talk to me like I am worthless. Only, because I am too scared to stand up to myself.

Is scary how many people out there live their life’s with NO CARE for other human beings or welfare of animals, I watch from afar, people wearing leather/ fur like is the best thing they have achieved within their small narrow minded life.

Yes, I have been beaten, to the cruel reality of life and today’s selfish and greedy world.

I been focusing on helping people near me, and also trying to help myself, not to succumb to this horrid era that I am unfortunate to live in.

I stopped myself, from becoming a journalist, because I was scared of my small 10% dyslexia.

Is hard to admit my failures, but here it is.

World 1. Tania 0, World you won.

Random thought

There is so much that I will like to write about. 

Not enough energy in my fingerprints to do so. 

Sometimes I will just like to float in the middle of the ocean and let the waves take me to my inner peace.

No more worries

No more people

No more problems

No more

Just my mind floating away.

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